Deviation is Disaster!

Have not remained disciplined and true to the C & L regime, even referring to it as a regime demonstrates the shift in my thinking about the food.  Have allowed sugar (chocolate) and wheat (in various forms) and, worst of all, alchohol.  I have actually put on nearly two kilo from my lowest weigh in (at a 5 kg loss).  Very disappointing.  Topping up my exercise in a bid to bring it all together again as I really do want to maintain what I so successfully achieved.



Starting over! We are doing it together!

I have continued to lose weight and am feeling cleaner and leaner than ever but have deviated more than once including sugar and wheat into my diet.  This began a few weeks back when I was working 12 hour days and having to eat both lunch and dinner at work. Anyway Marcus said he wanted to do the kick start program and so I am joining him to get back onto the straight and narrow. 
The downside is the amount of food preparation and planning that I do find a bit tiring. We should both be in great shape for our trip to Noosa planned late September.

3 months later…

I have continued to lose weight and feel really good – almost 5kg since late May!  There are some days when I have not stuck steadfastly my new principles of no sugar, wheat or alcohol but the difference is that I am disinclined to binge on any of these.  So, I have had a little bit of chocolate here and there and had a toastie up at Red Hill on Saturday morning, some grog while in Melbourne on Friday night.

I had previously had a glass of wine on another occasion but found it caused me to have a disturbed sleep so I am happy to just not drink any alcohol.

Weeks 5 & 6, the details!

SUNDAY 23 June
{Poached eggs with Asparagus and Smoked Salmon} – another early walk this morning meant that I did not make this – grabbed a banana and the 12 cashews from morning snack time.
Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk – times 2!
{Chicken breast, 12 cashew nuts}
Green Super Salad with Turkey and some hummus
{Clean and Lean Wrap}
{Turkey, 1/2 green pepper}
Lamb Cutlets with chermoula dip and roast courgettes, this was a great meal to share with the family, the little boys loved the lamb cutlets and the chilli on the zucchini was delicious.
I made an Italian Jam Crostata for dessert, not C&L at all, but something for Georgia and Benny to enjoy and then take home.  Of course I had a sliver with some berries, but no cream.
Marcus made me rethink my no alcohol policy when he made a Campari Soda before dinner tonight – I would have loved one!!!

MONDAY 24 June
Poached Egg with Asparagus and Parmesan, really enjoyed this as it is similar to an old favourite where I poached lightly then baked the eggs on the asparagus drizzled with butter and Parmesan
Turkey and 5 walnuts, subbed pecans
Red and Yellow salad with Mackeral  ( good quality tinned Mackeral )
{Smoked salmon with 1/4 Avocado} no time for this but had some macadamias
Balinese Steamed Fish, served with Spinach – this was fantastic steamed in the bamboo steamer on a bed of lemon leaves from the tree in the courtyard.
Nibbled on some Quinoa crispbreads after dinner, feeling peckish.

Perfect porridge with berries,  yoghurt and almonds – this was quick and easy and a favourite!  Orange rind a delicious addition.
Had two coffees on the way in as had time to relax over them before heading into work.
Chicken breast and 12 Cashews – timely snack
Clean and Lean Wrap – variation on this roughly wrapping cucumber and turkey in a lettuce leaf with a smear of Hummus.
Beef Slices and 1/4 cucumber – another timely snack that should get me through to dinner,
Feeling very C&L today!
12 macadamia nuts
Grilled Chicken and Radicchio Salad

Mixed things up quite a bit today getting back to some of the Kickstart meals and plan.
{Buckwheat and Blueberry Pancakes} Egg,Broccoli and Tomato breakfast this morning.
{Chicken and 6 Pecans}, 12 Cashews
{Cold Lamb Salad}, Spinach, Avocado and Smoked Salmon Salad with Seeds, followed by an Atkins Bar and Espresso Coffee
{Chicken and 1/2 sliced tomato}, Blueberries
{Roast Chicken, Kale, rice, avocado}, Macadamias; Quinoa and Vegetables with 6 Prawn Cutlets tossed in Coconut Oil
Frozen berries with non fat yoghurt.

{Scrambled Eggs with Smoked Salmon and asparagus}, no time – Quinoa porridge with Almond Milk, mixed berries and chopped Almonds
 Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk
Turkey breast, iceberg lettuce, hummus
 {Green Super Salad with grilled chicken (leftover roast chicken)}
{Turkey and 1/4 cucumber}
Grilled Steak with Rocket and Tomato Salad

FRIDAY 28 June
Quinoa Porridge with Mixed berries
 Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk
Turkey, spinach and Avocado
{Spinach salad with Smoked Salmon and Avocado}
{Chicken with almonds}
{Delicious Puy Lentil Salad}
Arrived at Metung, beaten by Matt and Gab who had prepared a roast lamb and vegetables dinner for us all, it was good but did not feel so C&L to me.  We ate mixed nuts prior to dinner and I over indulged here! But, no alcohol and so I felt good,

SATURDAY 29 June. The holidays begin and I am fearful that I will not be able to maintain the C&L approach with so much socialising and feeding people at Metung.
Gab and I walked into Metung, a bit over an hour and 20 minutes so we had breakfast there, meeting the boys who had driven in.
I had a Roast Almond Muesli served with some fresh strawbs, yoghurt and milk and enjoyed my long black coffee.
We lunched at the pub in Lake Tyers where I had a Vietnamese salad with fresh grilled Squid.
Dinner was as C&L as I could make it- Wild Rice Salad with red and yellow peppers and avocado and the Super Green Salad. We had with prawns and an organic chicken that Marcus splayed and grilled on the bbq.
While we played cards and they at chocolates I nibbled on some blueberries!

SUNDAY 30 June
I made a pan full of Scrambled Eggs for our breakfast with baked tomatoes. I had a head of broccoli that I ate with mine and a slice of Spelt Bread toasted with some butter. Home prepared Long Black with milk to finish.
Lunch was left over salads with some prawns.
Dinner was left over chicken, lamb and baked veg all reheated and served with leftover salads.

The local ‘Power Porridge’ ticks all of the C&L boxes and so I enjoyed a bowl of this with Almond Milk and Strawberries.
Coffee in Bairnsdale this morning, nuts for morning snack.
Spinach and Avocado salad with the end of the Prawns for lunch.
@@@ bit of a lapse as I could no longer resist the choc bullets sitting on the side table since Saturday night and a few chocolates.
C&L Minestrone soup for dinner with a slice of toasted Spelt Bread and butter, followed by some berries and yoghurt.

Power Porridge as yesterday then into Metung where I enjoyed not one, but two cups of Coffee!
C&L Minestrone soup for lunch, followed by some hummus with veggie sticks and lavosh (some wheat here I realise, but in a healthy form)
Working outside I did not break for a snack but had some nuts before dinner.
Smoked Trout served on a bed of Spinach, cucumber and red pepper with a delicious Asian dressing, home made, followed by Salmon grilled on the bbq served with an avocado salsa and wilted spinach.

Breakfast in Bed: fruit salad( papaya, banana, strawbs and raspberries) with yoghurt and seeds.  Egg white omelette with Zucchini and spring onion.
Coffee in town.
6 Brazil nuts
Lunched on leftover Salmon and salad
Feeling on track with the C&L eating once again and it feels good! It is easy when it is just the two of us with all of the support I am getting from Marcus who can clearly see the changes in my physical self and the associated boost to my self esteem.
Pre dinner drink ( Lime and Soda ) with some nuts, tzatziki, celery sticks and lavosh chips.
Some of Tina’s dumplings
C&L Minestrone soup for dinner with Spelt Bread toasted and buttered.
I am feeling really excited that Imogen is trialling a sugar free diet for Eli and Zac in a bid to have a positive effect on their behaviour.  I am sure it will make a difference!  She is being really creative with their food and making it easy for them to have a healthy snack when they are hungry.  She is also stepping up on the inclusion of quinoa and cha in her own diet with less than 3 months to go before the birth of her little girl.

Quinoa porridge with strawberries and Almond Milk
Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk
In the car for our drive into Melbourne, nibbled on some nuts and bought a garden salad with avocado in Yarragon.
Arrived in Prahran around 4:00pm and I grabbed a mandarin from reception to tide me over til our late dinner at Saigon Sally’s.
We had the banquet meal that began with kingfish in betel leaves, followed by a really light and lovely Vietnamese Chicken Salad. After this came some prawn meat cooked in pandanas leaves – little parcels to unwrap and dip into a thickish sweet soy mixture.
Waghu Beef cooked rare and served in a ponzu sauce scattered with pomegranate seeds; this came with a dish of pork belly in a strong braise that I found really unpalatable. Thankfully it was served with a green papaya salad that was so refreshing.
Overall too much sugar throughout the meal in the sauces and preparation but I could not resist the dessert, one of the to served: a glass with tapioca, popcorn, lime granita, mixed berries and sugar puff meringues! It was WOW!
No alcohol and so yes this was definitely a Cheat Meal but not too over the top.

To continue the Cheat Meal – we ate brioche for breakfast with coffee and later, at the Vic Market, we shared a Spicy Lamb Borek. Too fatty.
A punnet of Strawberries and one of Blueberries saved the day.
Fresh fish, whitebait flash fried; baked trout and Barramundi with a Cavolo Nero and Spelt salad for dinner had me back on the C&L straight and narrow.
Have not indulged like that at all in this first 6 weeks so have done pretty well.

8 hazelnuts on my way out the door to Georgia’s grabbing my coffee as a takeaway on the way though Red Hill. A banana at G’s.
3 year old Tully and I made Banana and Blueberry muffins if which I ate two.
Another coffee around lunchtime.
G and I had done 45 minutes of a fitness routine together prior
I made some carrot and rice soup for lunch
Marcus cooked some flathead, floured with besan to give it a tasty crunchy coating. We ate this with a fennel and tomato purée and a large bowl if spinach and rocket salad.

Week 4, the journey continues, pity this is not in chronological order!!!

SUNDAY 16th June:
Breakfast at Whispering Vines Cafe at Trofeo Estate in Dromana.  Porridge with Honeyed Yoghurt and Baked Quince slices.  An amazing Organic Coffee with Biodynamic Milk served in an exquisite cup will have me going back there again and again!

A few Brazil nuts for a snack late morning the a couple of hours outside moving a load of red gum before having lunch of Spinach salad with red pepper, avocado and cold chicken.

Marcus cooked up some Indian for dinner – a piece os salmon baked and served with some lentil dhal with spinach, eggplant with tomatoes and yoghurt, and some spiced potatoes. I ate about half of my usual serving size.

MONDAY 17th June
Quinoa Porridge made with unsweetened Almond Milk, Chia seeds and eaten with some cherries and sliced almonds.
Coffee on the way in and Almonds for morning tea.
A second coffee around lunch time.
Lunched on the Spinach Salad with Avocado and Smoked Salmon
Strawberries eaten at the staff meeting to take me through the afternoon, but feeling hungry by the time I arrived home.
I made some kale chips to snack on while Marcus cooked some fillet steak, baked some red peppers with tomato and I made the Lemon Chilli Broccoli.

TUESDAY 18th June
Broccoli, tomato and poached egg with Parmesan
Mixed Seeds
Kale salad with radish and goat’s cheese.
Super mince, Asian style served with finely julienned carrot, red pepper, cucumber and lettuce
Went to the cinema with Imogen and we shared a dark chocolate Cherry Ripe bar.

Quinoa Porridge made with unsweetened Almond Milk,and eaten with some cherries and sliced almonds.
Long black espresso with full cream milk
Spinach Salad with Avocado and Smoked Salmon
Long black espresso with full cream milk – a second coffee around 4pm, not ideal but I had a long night in front of me and was waiting for an appointment
Back to work at 5:15pm to do some work before the School dinner I had been invited to.
I ate some Chocolate Bullets!  YES YES I KNOW!!!
Dinner, made and served by our hospitality students, was too much of what I had not been eating:
Savouries: vegetarian sushi, salmon blinis, deep fried pumpkin and three cheese wontons and vege spring rolls
Beef Consomme
Chicken Breast stuffed with mushrooms served with ratatouille and pasta (left untouched)
And, wait for it, home made vanilla ice cream scooped, coated with coconut and panko crumbs and deep fried! Served on a cream anglaise.
I escaped around 8.30 feeling over stuffed.

THURSDAY 20th June
I have decided to follow the eating guide in the C&L Cookbook although I was initially put off by the amount of meat ( for morning and afternoon tea!), but I get the principle and so topped up on meat today!
Quinoa Porridge made with unsweetened Almond Milk,and eaten with some cherries and sliced almonds.
100g Turkey, 1/2 Avocado
Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk
Bocconcini Cheese, Tomato, Basil, drizzled with olive oil
Mixed seeds
Ham, chicken meat, roast beef ( the filling out of several sandwich quarters )
2 egg omelette with Spinach, served on dark rye pumpernickel bread.

FRIDAY 21 June
{Easy Scrambled Eggs, served with red capsicum – no eggs!!!}
I steamed a very small chicken breast, wilted some kale and ate them with 1/2 an avocado and some sliced red pepper
Went up to Red Hill for a coffee and so did not feel like the Turkey so I ate the 5 hazelnuts and went shopping
{Turkey slices } hazelnuts(5)
Cambodian Beef Salad – this was lovely, made with pomegranate seeds rather than green mango.
Chicken Beast, 1/2 Tomato, I felt that I did not really need this and it left me feeling a bit full. I think I understand the principle of topping up on protein so will try to follow the eating plan.
Grilled fish with Quinoa, the quinoa was delicious as I threw in some red and green chilli when cooking the veg and also some lemon juice before stirring through the quinoa.

{May try to make some Deliciously Flaked Granola for breakfast}, no time to make this today as off for a 7 km walk with Gab. Grabbed a banana and spread some avocado on two Quinoa crispbreads.
Long Black Espresso Coffee with full cream milk
Chicken Breast and red pepper
Working in Imo’s garden today, she made me a spinach and avocado salad with some tomato and celery.
Beef slices, 1/4 cucumber
Made the Green Super Salad and took it over to Carol and Ennio’s to share with some chicken cooked with tandoori spices, so not the fish I had planned but lean nonetheless.
The salad was beautiful!
{Whole baked fish with greens (spinach, beans)}
Drank heaps of water today.

Week Three – A life changing opportunity – a life eating clean and lean

SUNDAY 9th JUNE: the first day of the rest of my life! A life eating clean and lean.

Today I breakfasted on some Kale tossed in a pan with a touch of olive oil and then a splash of water to cover and wilt off a little, finished with lemon juice and black pepper. Topped this with some smoked salmon and a poached egg and scattered all with some sliced red capsicum.

Another excellent long black coffee at Bites, then home to sample the Spelt Sourdough Bread I had made (with yeast, so not purely sourdough, but 100% spelt flour so no wheat). I ate a crust and half a slice spread with unsalted butter.  It is good bread so I will establish a spelt starter when we go home and make this for us, even though we eat very little bread I do want to continue to avoid wheat where I can.

I am looking forward to getting the cookbook this week but also looked through the latest Bodyism supplement on Facebook that was recently published in Health and Fitness UK, that had some good recipes and also exercise routines.

Marcus is really on board with all of this but cannot eat a lot of what I am eating due to his Coronary Artery Disease and avoidance of eggs and full fat dairy products. He is enjoying a lot of the veg and salad options however and gives me heaps of positive encouragement with what I am consuming.
I guess he knows only too well that I am a different (better) person when I feel lean and fit. Most of my recent problems were due to the fact that I had gained weight and was miserable about it.  Having lost 5 kg with WW from July to November last year, then putting 3kg back on over Christmas and the holidays I was struggling to lose it again. I am now back to the low weight I was in November last year and feel strong about pushing through a barrier that I have not been able to break for years!

With our visitors, Tom and Louise, we went into the Village Green for the Metung Wine and Festival.  My first half glass if alcohol in over a fortnight – a half glass of a local sparkling. I also ate some chicken laksa with rice noodles and veg but left the egg noodle in the bowl certain it would have contained wheat flour.

We returned home to have some coffee on the verandah where I ate only strawberries forgoing the Lemon Yoghurt Cake!
Marcus slow roasted a half leg of lamb that we ate with baked beetroot, pumpkin and potato.  Missed something green however, there was some broccoli to go with it but it was overlooked.  I finished off with a half glass of red wine.
My position on wine is that I will limit it to once per week if we are in a social setting, if I cannot avoid it altogether.

MONDAY 10th June:
Up around 9 am to breakfast on Power Porridge with Almond Milk before heading outside to finish mowing the grass in front of the house – it took me two hours and the whole time I was dreaming about the thick and rich coffee I would go into Metung for when I had finished. And, so I did but was very disappointed with the quality today, obviously a different barista on Mondays.
Ate some walnuts when I got back and put some wild rice on to cook to make the Mackeral salad with avocado. I also baked some red capsicum to slice into it.
As we left around 3pm we were on the road when dinner time came around.  We grazed on strawberries and blueberries with some seeds and nuts but arrived home hungry.
Priority one was heating the house, but Marcus quickly whipped up a meal of steamed salmon with bok choy tossed with chilli, lemongrass and oyster sauce (a bit sweet). It was a good C&L meal as I felt that the roasted veg last night were not really in keeping with the principles of the program.

TUESDAY 11th June: In the absence of an alternative I am going to repeat the Kickstart starting today with meals from Day One: Broccoli, tomato, egg and rocket with Parmesan / Walnuts / Smoked Salmon Salad with Spinach and avocado / Blueberries / Marinated Grilled  Chicken with a rocket salad.
Ate half a kiwi fruit after dinner, so hungry.

WEDNESDAY 12th June: C&L SuperBreakfast / Pecans / Grilled Chicken Breast with Spicy Salsa and Spinach and Avocado / Raspberries / Super Mince.
Lunch in Carlton as at Uni of Melbourne today and met up with Marcus up in town also. We shared some dumplings and rice paper rolls – not ideal but light enough.
I ate strawberries at morning tea.
Super mince Asian style with kaffir lime leaves, basil, chilli and garlic – quite tasty.
BUT, major breakout as I had some licorice all sorts and chocolate bullets!!!!! Why oh why after all of my good work over the past 2 and a half weeks???
And I was disappointed this morning to weigh in 0.5 kg heavier than last week!
Can I overcome this slip from the C&L regime? I think so but I always have that desire for this sort of junk food – it is the demon sugar! I already love my leaner shape and want to maximise this to make the biggest difference in a long time. I guess it could be the ‘Cheat Meal’, although hardly a meal.  My concern is the social weekend coming up, it is more difficult to eat with friends if they are serving up the food and wine!

THURSDAY 13th June:
Toasted Rye bread with Cinnamon Honey Butter – still find this too buttery, but did not hear back from Bodyism contact regarding my query about how much to eat. Coffee on the way in helped a bit!
Brazil Nuts – always good
Cold Lamb Salad – quite good as I found some lamb from our weekend roast
#### a little break out this afternoon with two slices of processed cheese, not great I know but most likely better than sugar!!!####
Red and Yellow Pepper Spelt Salad – this was good as I had spelt (farro) rather than barley and I cooked it well, mixed it with the dressing and stirred through red and yellow pepper chunks and broccoli.
Very filling!

FRIDAY 14th June:
Poached Eggs with Broccoli, Rocket,Grilled Tomato and Parmesan – out of broccoli so subbed kale tossed in a pan with water to wilt then a slash of olive oil
Up too late today to call that breakfast, definitely brunch!
Had two delicious coffees at Commonfolk in Mornington with Marcus while he ate lunch.
Mixed Seeds, ate these mid afternoon
Green Beans and Tomato Salad with Turkey – had 100g turkey only mid afternoon
(Blackberries , save this for dessert this evening with friends)
Chicken, Asparagus and Cashew Nut Stir-fry. – serving up grilled chicken with a range of healthy salads, Spelt and peppers, wild rice and avocado, spinach and raddichio.
This meal was replaced with grilled chicken served with salads Red and Yellow Pepper and Spelt,  Wild Rice and Avocado.  These were heartily enjoyed by our guests.
Matt and Gab brought dessert for all and included a biodynamic organic vanilla bean yoghurt for me!  It did contain some “organic sugar” but was not overly sweet and I had two spoonfuls on some strawbs and blueberries.
I feel quite free in my choice not to drink any alcohol although others seem almost challenged by the idea.

SATURDAY 15th June:
Made a 2 egg Omelette with spinach and goat’s cheese, it was delicious as I cooked it in butter.
I raced down to Georgia’s to look after the boys while she worked and made some apple muffins with Tully eating one of them in spite of the wheat flour and brown sugar.
Finally had a wonderful coffee at Red Hill on my way home around 12:15pm.
I ate some of the left over salads, a large bowlful so felt quite full!
Short turn around before heading out to a gathering with Imo in the afternoon where I resisted the Chocolate Mars Bar Slice and ate a few pieces of sushi instead.
We were out for dinner and so a bit concerned about my options.
I ate some prosciutto and a little tasty cheese,
a small piece of home cooked lasagne,
some baked salmon with sweet potato and pumpkin mash and green beans….
…..all ok until dessert – a parfait with jelly, stewed fruit, custard and a small scoop of ice cream.
I certainly noticed a big difference in how I felt after this meal compared to my C&L regime of recent weeks…
Anyway, early days and I pulled it back on Sunday.